Why isn’t life like a movie

Lockdown has been a lonely place. It’s been a time that all of us are alone with our thoughts way too much, day in day out. My days have consisted of binge watching Netflix shows. Hibernating. Going to a place which is most certainly unhealthy. It’s made me realise that there is so much more to life that what I’ve been doing. I’m not trying anymore, I’m not trying to better myself. I’m getting lost in teen high school dramas wishing my life was like what it is in these unrealistic shows. Wishing it was more exciting. Seeing the fun that’s had by the actors, forming bonds and relationships with people they work with. It’s made me think, “what am I doing with my life?” I don’t want to look back when I’m 50 and be disappointed in what I’ve achieved. I want my life to be better than it is now. Give myself opportunities to be the best I can be. Travel the world, make more friends, meet new people. Create love stories that I can laugh and cry about. I don’t want to be stuck in this place I am right now, unsure of which way to turn, looking out of my window thinking about what my life could be like. I’m finding myself going back to my teenage years, lusting after famous people and the fictional characters they play. I’m wanting to be famous, be in tv shows and movies even though I know full well I couldn’t cope seeing myself on screen. I wouldn’t be able to deal with the scrutiny I would face from the world. I would be my own harshest critic, even more so than I am now. So what are my options, this is what I need to figure out. Maybe this lock down has been good in some way, given me a chance to realise what I really want. I can’t be sat fantasising about other people’s lives. I’ve always seen more for myself, especially when I was younger. But over the past few years I’ve lost myself. I need to get back to reality and get back to being the ambitious person I was. Which is why I’m starting these blogs. I am going to explore life and why it’s not good for you to watch tv shows and movies and feel rubbish about your own. Life isn’t like the movies and it never will be. But if you have an ideal in your head and an image of what you want to do and where you want to be then get off your sofa and do something about it. Make your life as close to the movies as you can.

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  1. FranJuly 2, 2020 at 7:42 AM

    Well done Alix, I've read both of your posts and it's good to hear that you're getting to a better place. You deserve it. I look forward to reading your future posts. x

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