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We Are All In This Together

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In light of recent events, I have decided that today I am going to write about something a bit different, but it is still based around my original blog theme. I just feel like I need to get some things off my chest and talk about something which has affected a lot of us within the last few days or so.  Firstly, I am going to touch on a topic which has us all enraged today. After a nail biting Euros final where we unfortunately lost to Italy, absolutely disgusting behaviour has come to light today in the aftermath of the match. Okay, yes, we did lose. But we worked our arses off. Imagine the pressure felt by those players, with millions of people counting on them to ‘bring it home’. Then for people to have the audacity to throw abuse at them! Would you have had the guts to take those penalties?! I’m pretty sure the answer is a big fat ‘No!’ This really makes my blood boil and it makes me lose faith in humanity. I thought that after a truly horrific year, we may have come together to...
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I Looked at Myself in the Mirror.,

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I looked at myself in the mirror. I counted my fingers and I counted my toes. I studied the strands of my Ash blonde hair. I blinked and blinked to feel the weight of my long, thick eyelashes. I felt the soft carpet beneath my feet and I focused on that, accompanied with a heavy hand on my chest as I felt it rise and fall with each breath I took.  I captured all the sounds around me, singling out each one as though I had a deep connection with the songs dancing in my ears. I tried with all my might to grasp the furthest tweeting birds and the clink of a neighbours glass. The numerous dogs calling my name and the slightest wind ruffling the leaves of the surrounding trees. I wanted to stay in this moment. This moment of peacefulness, of belonging, feeling completely at one with my body and the entire world around me.  *** Use your senses, what can you feel, what can you smell, what can you hear. -  I find that one the best ways to deal with bad days or bad moments is to ke...
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Galentines Day!

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 So here it is, the day us singletons dread the most, and even more so in this never ending lockdown!  I woke up this morning to a news feed full of Valentine’s posts. Insta and Facebook showered with love. It does make me smile to see so many of my friends in happy relationships. I’m definitely not going to be bitter I tell you that much! But as I lay there with my two cats snuggled up to me, I got a sudden stabbing feeling of loneliness.  Maybe I’m destined to wake up the same way every day and maybe the amount of cats by my side will multiply, who knows? Or maybe it’s just not my time yet.  This is no where near the life I had envisioned for myself. I’m not even sure I remember now where I thought I’d be by this age. Married, kids on the way, dream job in the bag. The traditional journey I’d say. But who is to say what is traditional anymore, who is to say what is the right way to do things?  I have spoken before about the fact there is no set timeline in lif...
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The Light Amongst the Madness

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Sometimes in life you have to stop and think. Where do I want to be? What do I want to be? And how do I get there?  There maybe many possibilities, many options you want to take. Or maybe there is just one. That one goal you’ve always had and always dreamed of. Some of you might have got there already, you set out your goal and you made it. Many of you will be working towards it and everyday you get closer and closer. But some of us are stuck in something that we don’t want to do, thinking that we can’t do it, ‘I’m not good enough’ ‘they would never hire me’ is what we say to ourselves.  But is all about the job and the career? Or is it about what that job and career means to us, and how it shapes us. For a lot of people a job is a job, it pays the bills and puts food on the table. But for many of us it makes us who we are. That hard work, that dedication, determination and motivation. It makes us want to be the best we can be. It makes us want to progress and develop and fulf...
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Let’s dream of a time when freedom is ours for the taking

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The world is so unbelievably crazy right now and I think I speak for most of us when I say that I’m scared of what’s around the corner. This is something we haven’t experienced before, but it’s slowly becoming our way of life now and it’s mad to even think about what life was like before. Hugging, shaking hands, seeing your friends and family whenever you like, being able to leave the house without thinking “damn I’ve forgotten my mask,” or walking past someone on the street instead of crossing over to the other side. These are things we all used to take for granted, the little things, but now all we want is to be able to do them again.  We want to get up and dance in our favourite bars or night clubs, we want to meet every single one of our friends on our birthday. We want to travel, get married, mourn for a lost loved one. We want to turn on the news and not hear the words ‘lockdown’ or ‘coronavirus’ ever again. But when’s that going to be? 2 months? 4 months? 6 months? A year? A...
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The journey back to myself

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I’m done with the whole ‘I’m not good enough’ bullshit. (Sorry Nan) How did all the successful people in this world get where they are today? By getting off their ass and making their own luck. I’m not going to stand around anymore and waste time, waste what I’ve done and how far I’ve come. What do I have to lose? What do we all have to lose?  We all deal with rejection right? And what better way than to push yourself to improve time and time again. That’s what life is all about isn’t it? Being the best you can be? Then let’s do it.  Let’s see what you think to the following. My blogs are going to take a new turn, and this is just the beginning. I want to practise my descriptive writing more in my posts, while also keeping my overall theme. So this is a short extract, in which I try to explain my nightly rituals during the worst of my depression.  ... It was a cold November night and I wasn’t even close to resting my head on my favourite pillow and drifting off into a pea...
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How to deal with life and loss

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It’s time to write something new. See something new. Be something I’ve never been before. Who knows what’s going to happen day to day, month to month or year to year. But I want to be excited, joyful, determined. All the positive things I have never known before. We never know what’s round the corner, so we need to live each day. Tell the people close to you that you love them, reach out to everyone of your friends and family. Make everyone feel loved, special, appreciated. Who knows what tomorrow will bring.  For all of us this unexpected thing we call life, happens.  We wake up each morning not really expecting anything out of the ordinary. We have a shower, get dressed and brush our teeth. We have a routine. But we are never ready for a piece of news which makes the Earth beneath our feet shift. Even if we know deep down that the worst is going to happen, we are never really prepared.  I hate the fact that we have to face life and death. We see it on TV and in books. W...
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